Prayer

This week at church the pastor was teaching us how to pray. This may sound elementary but I truly learned SO much! He wasn't telling us word from word how to but rather how to build the right foundation for prayer. He gave us 10 things to think about when praying. I have them on my computer dashboard so every time I get on I read them. I plan on memorizing them so that when I pray I can pray with the way God should be prayed to. He isn't our, "dude" as pastor stated, but rather a friend that died for us so that we can have eternal life. I know I want to pray right, how about you?

1. Prayer is your highest appeal not your last resort
2. When we seek the Lord together it multiplies the power.
3. Prayer is a conversation in the courts of a king.
4. Build your prayer on the solid foundation of God's sovereignty.
5. Whatever you do, do not build your case based on what you deserve.
-we deserve to be in hell
6. Build a case based on God's agenda not your own.
7. Remind God of what he has done for others and what He's promised to do for you.
-it doesn't inform God but it hepls transform you.
8. Do not always pray for God to make things better-Pray for him to make you bolder
9. Expect God to move in response to your prayer.
10. If you are going to ask be ready to act.

Crawl

So I have this obsession about a new song I heard. I can't stop listening to it. This song was written by Chris Brown. He wrote it to his girlfriend, Rihanna. He hurt her and was band from seeing her. This song pours out his heart towards her. It seriously melts my heart every time I hear it. Here are the lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Everybody see's it's you
I'm the one that lost the view
Everybody says we're through
I hope you haven't said it too

So where
Do we go from here
With all this fear in our eyes
And where
Can love take us now
We've been so far down
We can still touch the sky

[Chorus]
If we crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love, Yeah
Back to love, Yeah

[Verse 2]
Why did I change the pace
Hearts were never meant to race
I always felt the need for space
But now I can't reach your face
So where
Are you standing now
Are you in the crowd of my faults
Love, can you see my hand?
I need one more chance
We can still have it all

[Chorus]
If we crawl(if we crawl)
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run (then we'll run)
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love, Yeah
Back to love, yeaaah

[Bridge]
Everybody see's it's you
Well I never wanna lose that view

[Chorus]
So we'll crawl (if we crawl)
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl

So we'll crawl (ooh)
Till we can walk again (till we can walk again)
Then we'll run (we'll run)
Until we're strong enough to jump (until we're strong enough to jump)
Then we'll fly (then we'll fly)
Until there is no end
So let's crawl, let's crawl, lets crawl
Back to love
Back to love yeah
Back to love

If you want to listen to it go here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3eLRpf6kwHs

I will miss her...

Thanksgiving has been very eventful with mixed feelings of sadness and happiness. We did the regular traditions on Thanksgiving Day. However, the day after took an unexpected turn. We got up at 4 am to do the early bird specials. It was exciting and very thrilling. You wouldn’t believe how greedy people can be. Ashley got pushed into shelf and her arm has been swollen for days! It’s just all about mapping out where you go and what you’re getting. It has to have a strategy behind it. Well about this time I found out one of my friends lied to me and I got really disappointed in her. An hour after I found that out my mom got a phone call. She immediately got silent and walked away from the chaotic store. I followed her and after realizing it was a death I started questioning who it was. We both were trying to hold back the tears the only difference was she knew who it was and I didn’t. That was a very scary feeling. She hung up the phone and said, “Ma-Maw, it was Ma-Maw.”

Ma-Maw was my great grandma. She lived a long, hard 89 years. But somehow with all her struggles she went through she always had love in her heart. She never wanted anyone to go through any pain, experience half the things she did, or lose as many people as she has lost. About 10 years ago she lost her beloved husband, Pa-Paw. He lived a very long fight with his medical problems. God put him to ease by allowing no more pain and taking Pa-Paw to live with him. Both Pa-Paw and Ma-Maw were very strong Christians. All six of their kids were grown up in a very loving home.

After we got the shocking news we planned how we were going to attend the funeral. The funeral was on the borderline of Mississippi and Alabama. Which was 4 hours from where we were, Tallahassee. My mom had to fly to California on Sunday so if my dad took us my mom had to find some way to get home. My aunt and uncle left a day early to take my mom back to Greenville. From there she rented a car and drove to Charlotte. My dad, 2 sisters, and I all drove all over the place on Saturday getting the appropriate attire for the funeral. We drove from Florida to Georgia to get a tux from my uncle for my dad to borrow. Then back to Florida to stay the night at my grandparent’s farmhouse. Sunday morning we drove to Mississippi for the funeral. I met family I have never even heard of. The funeral was hard and I cried like a baby. But settled with the fact that she is in a way better place and dancing with her husband whom she hasn’t seen in 10 years!

Holidays

Ahh! Holidays! I just love them. They make me so cheerful and happy. Seeing people I usually don't see, eating TONS of food, going to see family, and simply just being out of school. I just am always in a holiday mood. One of my pet peeves is when people celebrate a holiday before the other ends. For example putting christmas decorations up before thanksgiving.
My family has many traditions we do for each holiday. Thanksgiving we always go to Florida to visit my moms side of the family. We are like one big, Italian family. We are LOUD, eat tons, and laugh uncontrollably. It is always loads of fun. On Thanksgiving we go to my grandmas second house. It sits on hundreds of acres. They have four wheelers, dirt bikes, golf carts, etc. We just race all throughout the trails. It never gets old.
This year I went earlier than my family. They all come Wednesday and I came Sunday! I flew in and did a layover all by myself... oh i am so proud! :) I was nervous but just asked some random non creepy people and it was all good. From the time I stepped off the plane till now I have been going non stop having fun! We went to see New Moon (ahhh! best ever), went shopping (tons of new adorable clothes), manicures, and eating out! It has been a blast. So worth my horrid plane rides. Tonight we picked my aunt up from the airport. She was flying in from college. Yes, I have an aunt thats only four years older than me. Weird... I know. She is already gone off with friends. I am now watching movies with my nonnie and enjoying every bit of it! :)
Like I said, Holidays are the best!

My assumption, His answer

Last weekend was amazing! Sorry I am a little late to tell about it. I was re awakened with Gods truth, I sewed a friendship back together, I hung out with people I would of never seen myself with, and I didn't have a lot of homework (always a plus).
I always assume things which I need to stop doing. I assumed me and her would never talk; we hung out last weekend. I assumed he wouldn't want to hang out with me; we hung out a whole day last weekend. I assumed God would just give up on me; he never has and never will.
Assumptions usually only set me up for failure. I tell myself something so many times I start to believe it even though its not true. I have gotten in so many arguments with the result being, "oh, i just assumed you..." That assumption caused an argument that wouldn't of been there if I didn't let Satan into my head and create it. My prayer for today is that God will open my eyes and show me the difference between my assumption and His answer.
Have a wonderful weekend y'all! :)

Long, Dark Tunnel

She moves in three months. What did I do wrong God for this to be happening? She is my other half. I need her to be within reach. Reach in three months will be hours away! I know, God, you don't tell us your daily plan for our life's but right about now it would be good to know. Is there anything your doing to protect me from? Honestly, I can't see the purpose of this tragedy. My heart aches. Three months is a second once it passes. It will creep up and shock us all. But you. But you know everything now, than, and then. You have a plan. Help me trust you. Help me see the light out of this LONG, dark tunnel. And God, shine your light through me.

Life...

So I feel like all my post lately have been kinda down and not funny. School has taken over my life and flipped it. I have learned so much about procrastination you won't believe it. I could honestly do a report on it! I have made some pretty awesome friends. Would you like to know something things about them? Aw good cause I am sharing!
1. She likes to help people out. She loves the railroad (strange huh?). She is African. Her name is (drumroll....) HARRIET TUBMAN! 2. He was a president (friends with the president.... weird). He hated slavery (good me too!). His name is.... ABRAHAM LINCOLN!
So you liking my new friends so far? I have learned about everything a good friend should know. I even did a project on my girl Harriet. Props to my hilarious rap! Go check it out, http://www.flocabulary.com/historysample2.html
Guys you will die laughing! HILARIOUS!
So there you have it. A glimpse in my life these days! Maybe Harriet will do a shout-out some day to me... you think? :)